Monday, April 26, 2010


i love having black hair again
i want both sides of my nose pierced, please?
my lip will be back again by the end of this week
i wish workplaces were cool about tattoos and piercings...
next week i am going to the tattooist to book for me & alex i'm so excited/nervous
august 2-9 will probably be the happiest week of the year for me, i have a little present for Alex when she's here.
i pretty much have changed everything, it's like he was never in my house, everything has changed. my bedroom, bathroom, lounge room.. i just need to delete the photos and he will be gone.
i don't think i have ever appreciated tam as much as i have for the last two or so weeks, she understands everything.
last night my family came over, fuck i love them. my cousin who i haven't seen in over 5 years came with his girlfriend, so i got drunk haha.. it was a bit cute :)
my mums in new Zealand and i hate it. i miss her

my blogging is so boring, and i don't care :)

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Friday, April 23, 2010

i love tamara :)
oh by the way
i got glasses :)

Sunday, April 18, 2010

so, my finger

still has a lump, still hurts & still looks yum
i wonder what has hurt my finger like this
maybe it's my body trying to shut down, it's been trying hard lately.
but i'm strong.. i won't let it.
i think i miss things, but those things were lies anyway.

i wonder why i miss the lies
i wonder why i like the lies more then the truth,
the lies kept me happy for nearly 3 years.
then one day, everything changed..
i found out all your lies
nothing will ever be the same, i feel like i need to talk to you, but you are a lie.
i don't want anymore lies, ever.
it feels like you never existed, but it's too hard to think that you were never here.

i need truth.
are there any honest people in this world left?
or am i left here alone?

Saturday, April 17, 2010

i'm changing

nothing will ever be the same.
i'm happy i left wodonga, i just wish i took alex in my suitcase.

today at work, i was alone upstairs with a man talking about beds
when he grabbed me
i fucking shat myself.. he got in real close and said "im going to ask you out then throw you on this bed you young girl ;)"
i managed to get free from him grabbing me and ran downstairs were he left calmly like nothing had happened.
we have a new rule at work, every 2-5 mins we have to check on each other.


my finger really hurts, something has bitten it badly and its all swollen
looks yum